kerplunk

it's somewhat comforting to hear, that sound 'kerplunk': the way you know that a stone, as light as it may feel in your hand, still bears the weight and value, perhaps to make a sound. or make a ripple, if you will.

there are also times in my life when things just go 'kerplunk'. they just land. it's not quite 'kaput', because 'kaput' seems to designate itself with finality. or so to say, "It is done." there is no hope left, nothing to revive, or nothing left to savor.

just this morning, when I had to tell two of my sections that I would not be returning next year, things just went kerplunk. I didn't really know what to expect, but at the same time, because I know that word had been getting around, and that it wouldn't be all the big a deal to some students, the words, "I just wanted to let you know that I won't be returning next year...." and the words that followed after that just kinda sank. one of my sections was actually more responsive than the other, and more curious. the other? kerplunk. but all in all. what can I expect--it's awkward enough for me to have to tell them news that they should have heard from me first, and about a week and a half ago, but in all honesty, I'm not one to make a big deal about such things...I don't want it to be a big deal, nor do I think it is a big deal.

but I don't want to be 'kaput'. I'd like to think that maybe, even if my memory sinks to the bottom of the teaching pond here, that maybe, just maybe I'll get kicked up to the surface every now and then.

thunk a lunk

It's never easy to.... (finish it and then describe/explain it)